Wednesday, September 2, 2020

EXILE

  

1.


Permitted

one day:

 

collect things

be beyond border

or else.

 

2.


A broken circle

closes behind me.

 

I spin-off

indefinitely,

absent gravity.

 

3.

 

My memories

disserve me—I must leave that life

behind

 

again and again;

again and again.

 

4.

 

I see familiar forms.

I think I am home—


I slip

into an abysmal zone—

I gaze into a labyrinth of memory, 


sink into a haze

of yesterday’s today.

 

5.

 

I did not abandon

your memory.

It might return.

Monday, August 17, 2020

Gazing at the Creek

  

GAZING AT THE CREEK


from above

the trees spiral—

the surface, 


daguerreotypic

reflection.

Stratospheric strands

 

falling on the water;

a breeze blows

 

past the sphinxlike supports

of a low-water bridge.


Heman Park


Seoul Pets

 I wrote these for my wife's aunts in South Korea. There is some competition between their doggies and so they each got their own poem.


                    1.

MU’S RAINY-DAY BLUES

 

Mu looks 

outside…

 

baths of water, 

too wet for walks,

no ice cream, 

 

and smells muddled together. 

 

O Mu, just rest


The sun 

will be back; 


you will be walking past the bushes and the guard who says hello, then over the bumpy walkways to the park! 

 

                    2.

SOL’S SEOUL STRIDE 

 

Everyone smiles 

when they see those long legs 

striding around Seoul. 


Ajuma, look at those 

long-stemmed 

yellow rose legs, 

 

says the baker 

to the street vendor. 


Yes, they all agree! Sol 

is so sociable and popular! 

 

Rushing to his playdate, 

he drags his poor master behind him 

like a plow, 

 

block after block. Sol, 

bad boy! Those rope burns

and bruises on your mommy…

 

All the girls like you, 

Golden Boy, 

Prince of Cheongdam-dong.


1.

뮤의 비오는 날 


뮤가 봅니다


창문 밖을




목욕도 가능할 수 있을것 같은 양의 물


걷기에 너무 젖어


아이스크림도 없잖아



밖에서 온 냄새가 함께 진흙향과 같이 납니다


 


오 뮤, 오늘은 그냥 쉬어


곧 태양이


나올 것이야


그리고 너는 덤불들 그리고 인사하는 경비원 아저씨를 지나 울퉁불퉁 한 산책로를 지나갈 것이야


공원으로 향하면서


2.

[솔이와 걷는길]


모두 미소 짓어요

긴 다리를 보면

서울을 돌아 다니시다가 강남 아줌마들은 봅니다

하얗고 노란 긴 장미 줄기 같은 다리들


경비원 아저씨는 말하십니다

노점상 아저씨한테

"예, 모두 동의합니다! 설리는 무척

사교적이고 인기가 있습니다!"


그의 플레이 데이트로 돌진하며

그는 종종 불쌍한 엄마를 그 뒤로 끌고갑니다

쟁기처럼


동네 한 바퀴. 솔이

이런 힘센 인싸 소년! 이 목줄로 인한 아야

엄마한테 멍이 ...


놀이방 친구들은 다

골든 소년, 하이!

솔이는 청담동 왕자님


Sunday, August 9, 2020

NEW BLOG ADDRESS

 All of the posts from this blog have been exported to the new MindOfMoog blog.


It has a better name...

Friday, July 31, 2020

Saturday, July 25, 2020

Navel Gazing

To live well for me would be to wander in a garden. An earthly one.

I wonder at the bitter roots of my mind’s fruits—why am I so faithless?

I have learned by turning on myself, yet all the while my soul abides.

I shed myself and find new skin, moving from vesicle to vesicle.

Long is the day and short the night,

but darkness shrouds my inner light.

 

When the sun rises, my cat rushes to the light.

It warms her, she bathes in it. I admire her

ability to enjoy these daily pleasures.

We are not so far apart. I can see

her intentions but I cannot reach

that inner peace in her eyes.

 

Beauty lies all around us, I suppose it’s in the eyes.

Too often, I sat waiting for another to kindle this light.

How deep seem my shallows, how shallow my deep;

for that which the eye cannot touch lingers beyond reach

taunting the proud. I approach my shadow.

Who approaches? I AM, speaks my soul.

 

Let us not linger too long in the depths. Brevity is the soul

of wit. Sometimes, I am troubled by long nights. My eyes

burn as I squint in the dark. I should be sleeping

but a question is stuck in my throat, longing

to be announced. Am I that, which I am?

As soon as I posit myself entire, I enter a labyrinth.

 

This wandering life can grow weary. Where is the center of the labyrinth?

One tires of the spirit’s walls. I long for an audience with my soul.

Invocation is less than worthless. I seek and it recedes.

My mind knows not what it asks.

I seek Ithaca, but I am at sea.

Must I make these waves, my home?

 

I see some distant mass and long to find my home.

I think I am found. I move through a labyrinth

of familiar shapes, yet they seem empty.

Perhaps, I am wrong. Maybe home is in the apse of the eye?

My wondering is self-reflexive, I am at odds with myself.

Once again, I ask: where is the heart of the labyrinth?

 

Night is forever. Silence waits at the end of delight. Doubt is a labyrinth.

Innocence loses its way. The spirit rooms in the soul, passing another day.

My heart is like meaning. It works thanklessly for me day and night.


Labyrinth

One wanders around

in labyrinthine

search of oneself.

 

Born at the center,

we drift outwards

until the end.

 

This mortal coil,

is my labyrinth.

 

I wander in doubt,

but with faith

in this wandering

life, which is mine.

 

Its walls are only as narrow

as my eyes; my perspective

is as deep as my gaze.

 

The more I wander,

the more I wonder

at the intricacy of

 

my labyrinth,

my world.

 

As far as I can see,

it keeps going—

it is growing,

it seems.

 

Once, it was maddening

not to be able to see

a means to the end.

 

All our ends,

                      are means—

we are not lost—

                            now I see that

I am circulating.

 

We move like blood

from the heart

to the brain

and back.

 

-James B. Moog


Friday, July 24, 2020

This Drifting Life

I want to will,

I will to want,

I remain still.

 

Is this wanting

willed, or is it

my will that is

wanting?

-James B. Moog


Diva in Fur

O, stay not thy visits diva in fur!

You move like jazz and weave

to me. Wordlessly, I infer

your desires. Do not leave.

I hear you slinking, undeterred,

in spite of our spat, I cannot cleave

myself from you. Though you injure

me with your claws, I believe

it is only your temperament—

there, your greening eyes repent!

My fury dissipating like a dream;

I forgive you and recline serene.

You pounce upon me in no time—

how could I blame you, my feline?

 

-James B. Moog


Thursday, June 25, 2020

Free Range Egg



1. "I tell you, the egg is but a means to an end..."
2. "Yes, Egg is something to be overcome."
3. [SLAM!] "All that ain't for me...you see..."
4. "I'm proud to be an egg!"
5. "Egg is in!"
6. "And I'm an egg about town." ["Here we go!; "Wheeee, Yah!]
7. "Don't put us all in that basket!"
8. "So you see, guys, I'm a free range egg now!"

I never feel myself on the group chat

Every face is 
like a window
(a mirror). 

Every face seems my own
for a moment
(if it speaks clearly,
if I listen carefully).

I am among them
and experience them all
at the same time.

Yet, when I look closely
at my own visage
it seems false
and distant.

I extend myself to those others 
in close sympathy;
myself, I experience at a
                                         l
                                          a
                                            g.

Beyond the Pleasure Principle


I never got Beyond 
the Pleasure Principle;
I couldn't figure id out.

Tuesday, June 23, 2020

Proud Egg Cartoon #2



1. "This here...is Egg City"
2. "Who am I? Okay, sure, I'm an egg"
3. "But not just any egg"
4. "I'm a BAD EGG. Rotten to the CORE"
5. "I got a feverish desire for FAME"
6. "But lately...I been crackin' up"
7. "My head is all scrambled" 
8. "So I'm gettin' outta' here... Leavin' Egg City for good!"

Proud Egg Cartoon #1


1: Call everyone in. Tell them...
2: I'm proud to be an egg!
3: After all...at the end of the day, it's all "over easy"
4: But all yolking (joking) aside, being an egg ain’t easy...
5: Sometimes, I think there’s something... I don’t know...growing inside me!

Wednesday, June 10, 2020

Daybreak

 

Daybreak

 

Hopes sown out of season cling

Like bulbs in frozen ground

To aspirations of Spring

 

Yet Summer’s decadence cannot abate

Autumnal declines and long winters bound

To negate

 

Just as the Sun with Sisyphus’ might

Presses up and across the horizon

Before sliding into night

 

That which remains must evolve

Change displaces but also enlivens

Those who spring with new resolve

 

-James B. Moog


Friday, May 29, 2020

Advanced Leisure

I started another blog that I will loosely term a "lifestyle blog." It is really a place for meditating on the nuances of everyday objects and the time that we pass as "leisure." My first post is on chairs. I came up with this idea as a means to prompt myself to think about an everyday object in more creative ways. The more I thought about the subject, the more I realized that such an exercise can be very fun and even surprising at times. I hope that you will check it out. Thank you for reading!

Saturday, May 2, 2020

Friday, April 24, 2020

WUSTL Life-Lines (4/24/20)

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.

     Remote
     Shelter
     Digital
     Breathe
     Distance


It is easier to breathe
at a remote distance—
in my digital shelter,
for instance.
-James B. Moog

Thursday, April 23, 2020

WUSTL Life-Lines (4/23/20)

Today’s prompt
Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Aspen
     Shadow
     Fever
     Hidden
     Promise

Aspen now hidden.
A promise of fever
Lingers like a shadow.

-James B. Moog

Poems submitted for April 23

Tuesday, April 21, 2020

WUSTL Life/Lines (4/20/20)



April 20



Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.

Breath
Last
Rage
Close
Fortune

“Rage-Goddess, sing the rage of Peleus’ son Achilles, murderous, doomed, that cost the Achaeans countless losses.”
King Agamemnon held his fortune too close, his pride doubly cursing his great fighters’ their bodies made carrion.
Apollo, son of Zeus and Leto, incensed by the dishonorable treatment of his priest by mortal Agamemnon,swept a fatal plague through the army that spread upon man’s own breath.
Man killing Rage flowed through Achilles’ blade as well, driving it toward his King but Pallas Athena appeared before him beckoning caution.
Wise men fear the Gods and Achilles stayed his rage and returned to his men at last.

Poems submitted for April 20 

Friday, April 17, 2020

WUSTL Life-Lines (4/17/20)


Prompt

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Soft
     Glass
     Honey
     Gust
     Rest

A wanderer, though still
I might rest
but for the cold gust
hard against my skin, now
cracking like glass.
Oh, to reside forever
in halcyon fields where
the wind flows sweet
and soft like honey…
— James B. Moog

Poems submitted for April 17

Thursday, April 16, 2020

WUSTL Life/Lines (4/16/20)

Prompt

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Sunlight
     Ceiling
     Nostalgia
     Bleak
     Mother
Faust's Dream
The passageway is bleak,
the ceiling low—far
below sunlight.
“Follow it down,
’twill lead you to the Mothers.”
Beyond nostalgia:
delight in what exists no more
and yet waits to be.
— James B. Moog

Poems submitted for April 16

Wednesday, April 15, 2020

WUSTL Life/Lines (4/15/20)

Prompt

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Silent
     Oxygen
     Truth
     Dedication
     Owl
The truth is hidden
like the legs of an owl
and silent
like oxygen.
It takes some dedication...
— James B. Moog

ALSO

A silent moonlit dance.
against the silhouette
of an owl’s desire
Behold its prey, straining
for oxygen, in dedication
to its own truth.
— James B. Moog

Poems submitted for April 15

Tuesday, April 14, 2020

Theory of Color


In the Winter of 2016, my omonim[1] visited me
And my Korean fiancé, her daughter, Emily
To plan our wedding ceremony,
Eagerly anticipating our matrimony.

Before going to dinner one night,
We visited a Merdardo Rosso exhibition.
Illuminated by interactive light,
My omonim insisted, love creates the aesthetician.

I think back often to what she said:
Indeed, True Relations clarify.
Now, I find myself well-wed,
And wise enough to never dare defy
My wife or her mother
In the least
With no one above her
I am allowed celestial peace.

Returning to Ol’ Rosso,
I enjoyed his plasters most oscuro,
Supported only by dusky luminescence
While his works in wax seemed incandescent.

-James B. Moog


[1] Omonim means mother-in-law in Korean.

WUSTL Life-Lines (4/14/20)

April 14

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Gift
     Fall
     Brief
     Still
     See
Send us your poem via our Submissions page or post on Twitter or Facebook using the hashtag #lifelines.
I submitted a haiku this time:

Spring’s gifts are so brief.
Still, I long to see Summer,
Fall, and Winter too…
-James B. Moog
And another poem:
The fruit of knowledge,
overripe, a gift
of gravity after
a brief fall. 
We see only
the necessary.
-James B. Moog

Monday, April 13, 2020

WUSTL Life-Lines (4/13/20)

Prompt

Write a short poem (rhyming not necessary) that includes each of the following 5 words (anywhere and in any order). Poems should not exceed 7 or 8 lines.
     Star
     Stairway
     Memory
     Hour
     Light
***
a pathway of pebbles at night,
memory’s labyrinth of light
reaches a dark star
through an hour ajar
and a heretical power
ascends subterranean
staircases to the heart.
— James B. Moog

Many thanks to Orlando Luis Pardo Lazo who did me the great honor of surprising me with a Spanish translation which I prefer greatly to the original English:

Senda de guijarros nocturnos:
la luz laberíntica de la memoria 
rebasa a la estrella oscura 
de esta hora entreabierta. 
Entonces una fuerza herética
asciende las escaleras sumergidas 
que dan directo a nuestro corazón.

-James B. Moog

Finally, I couldn't help submitting another poem anonymously:

Ambiguous light falls upon
an unsuspecting hour.
Memory, that silver star, refuses
her curtain calls. I am
enchanted by a spiral stairway—
shadow play
before and beneath it—
and a single candle.

Poems submitted for April 13

Friday, April 10, 2020

WUSTL Life-Lines

Washington University in St. Louis has been inviting daily poetry submissions.  I submitted the following, which was published here.

The Human Eye

Don’t call me Ishmael;
I’m tired of that talk.
I live beyond the Whale
And reside now with the flock.

Oh, in harmony beneath the sky!
No longer seeking the celestial or the True;
Against waves of Fate, only an If am I.
Just a possibility beneath cerulean blue…

- James B. Moog

Tuesday, March 31, 2020

Covid-19 Update


Individuals today, across the world, find themselves amid a globally disruptive event, the Covid-19 pandemic.  Global markets are experiencing extreme volatility, jobs are at risk, and lifestyles derailed by fear and uncertainty in the face of a disease that has hit the world like a tsunami. 
As institutions struggle to calculate and adjust to the potential costs and dangers arising from this extreme disruption, individuals wrestle with the practical and existential implications of social distancing and lock downs, while limiting themselves to essential functions.  The initial absence of a strong and centralized Federal response to the Corona virus led to disparate bottom-up responses to the dynamically unfolding climate of social distancing, consumer hoarding, and a general climate of discomfort and withdrawal.  Private and public institutions have made coordinated efforts to flatten the curve and health providers around the world are working around the clock to respond to this evolving crisis.
Personally, I have admired the attentiveness and responsiveness of local businesses in the face of this pandemic.  My sympathy is with them; I know that small and mid-sized businesses are really suffering right now.  How can we balance the need to curtail the spread of this infectious disease without undermining the systems that hold our society together?  One thing is for sure: there is no simple way to navigate this climate.
Right now, we are all out of our comfort zones.  We are glued to our screens watching heat maps of the virus’ spread; checking other countries’ reactions to prepare for our own.  The climate changes day to day and uncertainty fills the air.  Meanwhile, we find ourselves on the backfoot as new restrictions (e.g. curfews) are announced every day; who can say what tomorrow will bring?  Time will tell.  Certainly, we will learn a lot from this unique episode in human history.  The Corona virus has made us acutely aware of the unpredictable nature of our little global community.  From this humbling experience, I draw the conclusion that, despite “social distancing”, we are all much closer to each other than we realize.
I would like to offer a sort of listicle of practical advice for this time of disruption.  How can we balance healthy fear while mitigating inevitable feelings of panic and dread?  How can we remain mentally fleet footed while physically locked-in?
1.       Educate yourself.  We are being inundated by information as our inboxes are flooded, while social media and internet browsing overwhelm us with novel suggestions.  In the face of such an overwhelming quantity of data, we must prioritize quality (e.g. information from the CDC).  At the institutional level, I recommend Michael Bang-Petersen’s article on the need to express unpleasant truths and “necessary precautions and clear communication about why these precautions are necessary to motivate people to follow the advice.” Click here to see the original article. 
2.       Engage responsibly.  People are using virtual interfaces like Zoom and FaceTime to overcome the hurdle of social distance.  See guidance from the APA here.
3.       Support small businesses.  Personally, I feel comforted by supporting local restaurants as they strive to adapt by providing curbside or traditional delivery services.  I am very grateful for their efforts and sacrifices and know that remembering to support my favorite restaurants is a great way to improve my mood.
4.       Do it yourself: Hopefully, we all emerge from this as better home cooks.  Finding ways to create delicious and healthy meals is a great way to take things into your own hands.  Cooking for yourself is most comforting when it is done with attention and care.  It is worth putting in your best effort even if you don’t have guests.  And you can always show off on Instagram. Studies have shown that everyday creativity can have important mental health benefits.
5.       A time for art?  Listen to music; visit the websites of museums or Google Arts and Culture; try your own hand at drawing or start a journal.  These are all great ways of keeping yourself stimulated and refreshed. Our time is worth what we make of it. 
6.       The positive side of disruption.  Disruption is the counterpart of change.  Many people have used the Covid-19 pandemic as an opportunity for reflection over essential aspects of their lives.  It is easier to be critical than correct and even harder to make long-lasting changes to our lives against the gravity of habit.  Disruption provides perspective and opportunity, not just uncertainty and displacement.

We can take advantage of the suboptimal situation by optimizing our environment to fit our needs. It is an opportune time for cleaning, reorganizing, and enhancing the beauty of our domestic spaces, in addition to stocking up on necessities and small pleasures of life.  Ask Marie Kondo!

Saturday, March 28, 2020

Un Hombre Libre en Cuba



In April 2013, the story of Beyoncé and Jay-Z’s trip to Cuba was all over the news.  They had received a hard-to-get visa that permitted them to visit our controversial island neighbor (you know, the one with the missile crisis).  President Obama was taking heat for giving them special privileges and maybe the absurdity of this situation contributed to his subsequent decision to restore U.S. diplomatic relations with Cuba and try to usher in a milder stance towards our isolated neighbor.  Regardless, I was there first. 

I visited Cuba using a person-to-person exchange visa obtained for me by Washington University.  I was part of a trip led by my friend and mentor, Professor Schraibman (Pepe). Pepe had grown up in Old Havana, where a vibrant Jewish community used to exist.  This community essentially vanished after the Revolution, as Jews had been on the wrong side of too many revolutions and had learned to leave while one could under such circumstances.  Still, Havana was Pepe’s home and he returned each year with supplies and medicine for the people of Havana and a group of lucky, young students in tow.  The people of Havana loved Pepe and their love was returned in this case.

Many in the United States maintain a romantic conception of Havana.  In pictures, we see brightly colored cars and historic Spanish-colonial style buildings.  Perhaps, you are familiar with the vibrant music of the Buena Vista Social Club?  It has a passionate, languorous sound.  Voices, jangling guitars, maracas, drums, and horns interweave into an oceanic ebb and flow.  This music could only have come from Cuba and the unique fusion of cultures that fertilized it.  Yet, such “social clubs” were abolished in the aftermath of the Revolution.  In a famous speech, Fidel Castro spelled out the future of art in Cuba: “The Revolution must have an attitude for…the intellectuals and writers…within the Revolution, everything goes; against the Revolution, nothing.” One did not need to crack a book to see that the Revolution had left little in Cuba untouched.  The streets were silent and the war was over but the Revolution lived on and it held its children in a suffocating embrace that left them gasping for air.  The machinations of the Revolution had been sustained by the lives and dreams of its people, which it fed upon in the name of the People. Against the Revolution, nothing.  What remained beyond the Revolution?  The vast and empty sea. A sea that imprisoned a people who had been assigned the motto, “Homeland or Death!”  And beyond that?  Everything.

In Havana, time could have been measured against the crumbling of pre-Revolutionary buildings.  I walked through a city that was falling apart around me.  A city of the condemned living on an island without boats.  The beautiful ocean that encircled Cuba was like a moat that stretched as far as the eye could see and there was not a single boat within sight.  The people of Cuba were overjoyed to find United States citizens on their island.  They had been waiting in vain for recognition from their powerful neighbor.  They were stuck in limbo, living as hostages of a sovereign feud and our arrival was interpreted as a good omen. 

The strong attraction that Cubans felt towards foreigners was, however, a product of their two-currency system.  Cuban citizens were paid in pesos for their government assigned work, a currency that was worth next to nothing and was highly illiquid, analogous to food stamps, perhaps.  Everything other than the bare essentials had to be paid for with CUCs, a currency that was pegged to the dollar at a rate of 1.0 USD to 0.8 CUC. The 20% premium was arbitrarily established by the Cuban government as an off-the-top collection.  For foreigners like myself, this currency was like a token system at an arcade.  There was no changing your money back, while for Cubans, there was no playing without it.  Within the Revolution, everything goes.

Without direct access to dollars or CUCs, the only other means of getting hard-to-find items (what we would consider everyday items) was to be lucky enough to have a kind relative overseas who was willing to send care packages back to Cuba.  The end of the embargo was sought with a religious fervor and many Cubans felt that their problems would be diminished substantially by the return of more Americans.  Accordingly, we were treated like royalty, which made me very uncomfortable.  Once, I saw some bracelets on display and wanted to get one for my wife but there was no attendant.  I stumbled into the home of an unrelated family, yet they wanted me to sit down and showed me the utmost hospitality. 

Most of the buildings in Havana were constructed in a Spanish-colonial style and many were built during the prohibition when Havana was viewed as an island escape for U.S. tourists seeking booze, gambling, and the magic of a truly unique city.  In cities like Rome, I have seen beautiful ruins encircled by new developments and streets filled with modern continental cars. In Cuba, there were only the latter; people lived amongst the ruins of the past─ their homes were literally crumbling around them. The city was very open because there was no privacy.  People lived in close quarters.  Walls had eroded, leaving cracks that allowed families to peer into each other’s living rooms.  I was told that the government had been slowly working on renovating these buildings but it was obvious that they were past salvation.  I wondered how often they collapsed on their inhabitants, crushing the people that they were meant to protect.  I was sure such incidents would not have been published in the Cuban press.  There were no tragedies in Cuba other than those of a counter-revolutionary nature.

Society was so dysfunctional at the macro level that, at the micro level, life had to be held together through relentless collaboration and small acts of kindness and genius. The brightly colored vintage cars that are admired in photographs around the world were perpetually being worked on in the street.  Their continued use did not stem from nostalgia but from necessity, which is the mother of invention and, in Cuba, a culture of MacGyver-like ingenuity. The Cuban populace seemed to entertain few illusions about the quality of the leadership in their country, which presented far more obstacles than solutions; their joy was a product of their overcoming of these obstacles on a daily basis, of their will to live and find meaning in spite of all of the absurdity. 

During my last day in Cuba, I remember walking along the Malecon towards the Hotel Nacional de Cuba where many celebrities and mobsters had gone to enjoy themselves.  As I strolled beside the sea wall, waves crashed against it and broke over the side, rising above and then crashing down on me.  By the time, I arrived at my destination, I was soaked but happy.  I walked in dripping wet and enjoyed a first-class daquiri. This was a world that Cubans did not get to experience.  An island within an island.  It had become clear to me that the Cuban people were exiles within their own country.  Everyone that I spoke to hoped that relations between the U.S. and Cuba would thaw out and return to a more sensible state.  Although I was traveling within a totalitarian state, I had arrived there as a free man, had traveled throughout as such, and would return to a country of unparalleled opportunity and freedom.  What about the people of Cuba?  Had their Revolution served them?  Would it ever end?  They were still waiting…  As Vasilly Grossman wrote, “Man’s innate yearning for freedom can be suppressed but never destroyed. Totalitarianism cannot renounce violence. If it does, it perishes. Eternal, ceaseless violence, overt or covert, is the basis of totalitarianism. Man does not renounce freedom voluntarily. This conclusion holds out hope for our time, hope for the future.”  The many friends that I made in Cuba lived their lives clawing at the walls but with dignity and pride.  They were resilient in spite of everything but, as we drank warm mojitos in the sun, they told me to bring back a message for them.  They said that they were ready for freedom, they wished for renewed friendship with the United States, and they prayed for the day when boats would grace their marinas and planes would arrive on their airfields which they too could board. 



My Handwriting


My handwriting is unruly and frantic.  It crowds itself as it rushes towards the end of the line.  The congestion tightens as it closes in on this precipice and the last words begin to slip over the edge like a herd of buffalo until they are magically transported suddenly to another line like Pac Man. 
When I take notes during meetings or class, it scampers after the speaker like a small dog.  It chases spastically and only catches up during lulls.  Inevitably, it falls behind and, like a child breaking into a sprint to reintegrate himself after straggling, moves into a bizarre shorthand and makes a break for it.
When I write in solitude, I sometimes take the time to try and “pretty-up” my writing.  I am deliberate and careful and then my writing starts to smooth and spread out.  The words have room to breathe and they take advantage of this rare opportunity to stretch, like a man on a transcontinental flight getting up to move around the cabin while he waits for his seatmate to return from the bathroom.  Most of the time, however, they will remain in cramped quarters, piling over each other.
About a year ago, I allowed myself a spree of indulgence.  I got one fountain pen and then another and another.  It was a sort of “if-you-build-it-they-will-come” moment.  In other words, I figured that I would grow into them.  The child who physical therapists had tried desperately to train to write properly with such novel devices as vibrating pens was ready to strut his stuff.  I loved the fancy nibs and beautiful colors.  Now I chose from colors that burst onto the page overripe, like piles of blueberries, bunches of grapes, or sprigs of eucalyptus.  Even the black inks had a special appeal.  They were a purer, deeper blackthat Motherwell hue that just sucks you in. 
Oddly enough, my writing did improve.  I was more conscious of my hand’s movements and the pens were more finnicky; they required some babying.  You see, I liked the flex pens, the ones that create those fun swoops on the downstrokes.  If you press too hard though, they will “railroad,” the nib parts like the Red Sea, leaving an uncannily dry path between two streams of color, an unnatural cleft.  This added flexibility required new restraint, which came to me intuitively out of necessity.  Suddenly, my hand was moving like a dancerlightly, softly...  And the pen moved like an ideal partner, always anticipating, responsive to the slightest suggestion.  Together, they slid and danced across the page like figure skaters, taking pride in their sweeping pirouettes, never missing a chance to celebrate their union.
The critic within me, however, looked down on this dance from above, peering like a disappointed parent at their prodigal child.  Now, I watched this extension of myself prancing across the page with great gusto but lacking the requisite adroitness to justify a stage presence.  Whipping its partner around like a mop, my hand spent itself overreaching; its movements lacked the economy of grace.  Well, I couldn’t blame the partner, a splendid tool with cat-like reflexes. 
How many hobbies had we been through, my hand and I?  How often had we arrived at them over-equipped and under-prepared?  But look at them dance, I thought; they are having such fun!  My prodigal child had lost his self-consciousness and had forgotten himself in those sweeping movements.  I descended from my critical perch to meet and congratulate them.  This young aspiring dancer was, after all, a part of me.

The Man of Sorrows: Ishmael and Melville’s Misericord



The Man of Sorrows: Ishmael and Melville’s Misericord
He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster. And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee.
-Friedrich Nietzsche, Beyond Good and Evil
The autonomous individual does not treat his own conclusions and decisions as authoritative but chooses with his eyes open, and then keeps his eyes open.  He has the courage to admit that he may have been wrong even about matters of the greatest importance.
-Walter Kaufmann, Without Guilt and Justice

            This paper will examine Melville’s democratic tragedy as a call for fellow feeling in the face of man’s insuperable longing for wholeness and universal suffering (Milder 23). Specifically, I will examine Moby-Dick in relation to the concept of misericord: a unique form of sympathy, associated with heartfelt commiseration, as well as mercy, compassion, pity, and charity.  “In the teachings of the Christian churches, charity was a religious emotion, a divine fire that destroyed the love of self to make room for the love of God and neighbors. Closely related to charity or caritas was mercy or misericordia” (Pullan 447). Tragic insight into the absence of divine sympathy, fills man’s heart with sorrow, misericord; he is bound to his shipmates, his brethren, not from the depth of his intellect, but by the strength of his spine and the depth of his sympathies. Inspired by Shakespeare, Melville created Ishmael, his pilot-prophet of the democratic man, and Ahab, his tragic hero in the manner of an Old Testament king.  Together with the crew of the Pequod, they harvest the purest fuel for illumination (spermaceti oil) from “the dark side of earth,” rather than “the theoretic bright one” which Emerson described in the Over-Soul (Melville 467).  From the depths of his sorrow, Ishmael calls the reader onwards.  Ishmael’s emphasis on the universal brotherhood of mankind should not be attributed to the ideals of man, but to the ordeals of man. Ahab’s quest to pierce the “ungraspable phantom of life” leads him to forsake the warmth of human sympathy in search of divine recognition but his labyrinthine hunt for the white whale ends in an abysmal downward vortex that swallows all but Ishmael.  Like the rest of the crew, Ishmael joined with Ahab in his Promethean rebellion.  Yet, while Ahab, like Prometheus, is bound in fatal agony to his tormentor, Ishmael is unbound and castaway. 
Ishmael finds his salvation in a coffin and, like Lazarus, rises from the ashes of the Pequod’s fatal collision with the walls of Fate. Man cannot “strike through the mask” of illusion; “the prisoner” cannot “reach…through the wall” (Melville 145). Yet perhaps another passage to freedom remains, that of the “Pagan leopards—the unrecking and unworshipping things, that live; and seek, and give no reasons for the torrid life they feel!” (Melville 146). Their sympathy is for themselves and their brethren and against the chaos that looms in the inscrutable depths of nature and lurks even in the familiar.  The pull of celestial white becomes siren-like; drawing man lee-ward only to bash him against the rocks.  Thus “the incantation of this whiteness… is at once the most meaning symbol of spiritual things, nay, the very veil of the Christian’s Deity; and yet should be as it is, the intensifying agent in things the most appalling to mankind” (Melville 175). To Ahab, the white whale becomes inhumanity and chaos personified, and in doing battle with it, he becomes a sort of Anti-Christ, who seeks satisfaction, not through prayer, but through defiance.  In “The Whiteness of the Whale” Ishmael senses that all “stately or lovely emblazoning… are but subtile deceits, not actually inherent in substances, but only laid on from without; so that all deified Nature absolutely paints like the harlot, whose allurements cover nothing but the charnel-house within” (Melville 175). Ishmael’s direct experience with the tragic undrside of man’s Romantic illusion of divinity, only serves to bring man to his knees. Ishmael’s renaissance is a felix culpa; his salvation is disillusion. 
Ishmael assumes the responsibility of a modern Moses, who leads his tribe from the torture of fire worship to the worship of “visible truth.”  Ishmael asks the reader: “Why then do you try to “enlarge” your mind? Subtilize it.”  Similarly, in “Extracts,” Ishmael, surveying the expansive references at the beginning of the book, compiled by the “Sub-Sub-Librarian,” sends the reader off.
Thou belongest to that hopeless, sallow tribe which no wine of this world will ever warm…—Give it up, Sub-Subs! For by how much the more pains ye take to please the world, by so much the more shall ye for ever go thankless!… But gulp down your tears and hie aloft to the royal-mast with your hearts; for your friends who have gone before are clearing out the seven-storied heavens, and making refugees of long-pampered Gabriel, Michael, and Raphael, against your coming. Here ye strike but splintered hearts together—there, ye shall strike unsplinterable glasses!
In this manner, Ishmael comes to embody the vocation of “pilot-prophet, or speaker of true things” “who acknowledges no law or lord, but the Lord his God, and is only a patriot to heaven” (Melville 42-3). In a similar fashion, Melville asserted that “With no son of man do I stand upon any etiquette or ceremony, except the Christian ones of charity and honesty” (Melville 511).  According to the Encyclopedia of European Social History:
In the teachings of the Christian churches, charity was a religious emotion, a divine fire that destroyed the love of self to make room for the love of God and neighbors…Christ and to find him in deprived and afflicted people and in wanderers, pilgrims, galley slaves, and the inmates of jails (Pullan 447).
Current usage of this word relates predominately to “A shelving projection on the underside of a hinged seat in a choir stall which, when turned up, gave support to a person standing in the stall” (OED).  Other historical meanings include:
 “a “larger measure of wine” given to a sick monk, to the short dagger or “sharp, straight, double-edged poignard that is called a misericord” (Bacchelli), used to “finish off” a wounded or dying enemy…  But above all, the term was and is used to indicate the instruments of first aid to the sick or wounded… and the pious associations and confraternities that …centred on the works of mercy: burial of the dead, succour of the poor and sick, charitable works towards widows, orphans and these in Prison. Even the bell that summoned the members of the Compagnia in emergencies was also – by metonymy – called a misericord (Encyclopedia of the Middle Ages)”
The phrase misericord seems conducive to an analysis of Melville’s conception of charity for many of these reasons, especially its special relation to orphans.
In “Monkey-Rope,” Ishmael alludes to an “interregnum in Providence; for… even-handed equity never could have sanctioned so gross an injustice” (Melville 287).  Here he is speaking of the risk that man poses to his fellow man; one man’s accident could be the death of an innocent interconnected individual.  While Ishmael senses injustice, Queequeg takes action and demonstrates an instinctual sympathy for the suffering of others.  Twice, he saves men from the deeps while others stand and watch self-consciously.  On the first occasion, he saves the life of a man who had just insulted him and whom he had just pummeled with the rear-end of his harpoon.  Yet, while Queequeg is proud, he is not vengeful.  When the same sailor is swept overboard, he dives in after him and brings him back safely to land.  Upon witnessing this authentic act of misericord, Ishmael exclaims:
Was there ever such unconsciousness? He did not seem to think that he at all deserved a medal from the Humane and Magnanimous Societies. He only asked for water—fresh water—something to wipe the brine off; that done, he put on dry clothes, lighted his pipe, and leaning against the bulwarks, and mildly eyeing those around him, seemed to be saying to himself—“It’s a mutual, joint-stock world, in all meridians. We cannibals must help these Christians (Melville 54).
Here we find Ishmael juxtaposing Queequeg, the Christ-like cannibal, against the virtue-signalling of urbane societies of misericord (fraternal charitable institutions) and finding the latter to be wanting in relation.  As Ishmael joked, I’ll try a pagan friend, thought I, since Christian kindness has proved but hollow courtesy” (Melville 45).
The readiness with which Queequeg accepts Ishmael demonstrates the depth of his sympathy, while the cannibal’s insistence upon splitting his prior earnings with Ishmael shows him to be closer to Christ than any Christian we encounter in the book.  In contrast to Queequeg , Ishmael marvels at “The urbane activity with which a man receives money is really marvellous, considering that we so earnestly believe money to be the root of all earthly ills, and that on no account can a monied man enter heaven. Ah! how cheerfully we consign ourselves to perdition!”  In emphasizing Queequeg’s superior moral character, Ishmael venerates the cannibal alongside (or above) the Christian. Ishmael’s emphasis of Queequeg’s humanities may have a precedent in the Calvinist concept of misericord.  In his book, Sympathetic Puritans: Calvinist Fellow Feeling in Early New England, Abram van Engen emphasizes
Calvin’s sense that sympathy arises from human nature and extends to all.  In fact, Calvin believes that even fallen, unredeemed human nature tends to melt at the suffering of others─a sentiment he often expresses with words like ‘misericord’ (mercy), ‘condolescere’ (condolences), and ‘humanitas’ (humanity)…Here, sympathy means being affected by the misery of another, and Calvin thought such a response fundamental to being human (Van Engen 35).
Calvin viewed misericord as an inherently human affect but his his highest conception of sympathy, love of the brethren, was reserved for those united in the body of Christ.  Man finds himself amidst an “interregnum in Providence” (Melville 287), man must serves as his brother’s keeper.
I would like to propose that Melville’s misericord exists in the absence of divine sympathy and inverts this hierarchy by equating misericord and love of the brethren.  As Richard Broadhead writes, “By positing a lowest common denominator of human identity he makes the stranger just like himself; by reversing his preconceived definitions of civilized and savage he makes the cannibal not only acceptable but actually desirable as a companion” (Broadhead 136).  This form of fellow feeling is forged in the depths of the sorrowful heart of a man who has “survived himself,” that is, overcome egocentrism through tragedy.  Such a man becomes a kind of pilot-prophet with “doubts of all things earthly, and intuitions of some things heavenly”; “neither believer nor infidel, but…a man who regards them both with equal eye” (Melville 335).  Like his prodigal son, Ishmael, Melville stated, in a letter to Nathaniel Hawthorne, that
a thief in jail is as honorable a personage as Gen. George Washington. This is ludicrous. But Truth is the silliest thing under the sun. Try to get a living by the Truth -- and go to the Soup Societies. Heavens! Let any clergyman try to preach the Truth from its very stronghold, the pulpit, and they would ride him out of his church on his own pulpit bannister” (Melville 335).
Melville’s sense of equality is derived in opposition to Emerson’s transcendental concept of self-reliance.   Similarly, Milder notes that “compassion for others, as much as loftiness in oneself, was for Melville the very mark and measure of the tragic vision” (Milder 65). 
Melville expressed this sentiment in another letter to Hawthorne of his letters to Hawthorne. “Let us speak, though we show all our faults and weaknesses—for it is a sign of strength to be weak, to know it, and out with it—not in [a] set way and ostentatiously, though, but incidentally and without premeditation” (Melville 514). Whereas, Emerson’s equates man’s highest instinct to Reason, separating spiritual awareness from empiricism, Melville elevates authentic and unconscious misericord.  It is from the depths of their sympathy that men draw their strength and “in those men who have fine brains and work them well, the heart extends down to hams. And though you smoke them with the fire of tribulation, yet, like veritable hams, the head only gives the richer and the better flavor. I stand for the heart. To the dogs with the head! I had rather be a fool with a heart, than Jupiter Olympus with his head” (Melville 512).  As Milder writes: “Not only was love "compatible with universal wisdom," as Emerson wrote in his own essay on Shakespeare, it was the natural consequence of wisdom, and wisdom the precondition for the highest love. And both of these things emanated from sorrow. Thus the tenderness and sympathy in Hawthorne's work could furnish "clews" for Melville of an "intricate, profound heart" deeply touched by suffering, for only "this only can enable a man to depict it in others" (Milder 65).  Herein lies the essence of Melville’s Hawthorne and his Mosses. 
Melville’s sense of “shared victimhood” is the axis upon which his ethics and metaphysics turn.  What makes the whiteness of the whale so terrifying is its inscrutability.  The question becomes, not necessarily whether or not there is a God, but as Goethe writes, “What is Praedestinatio? Answer: God is more powerful and wiser than we are; therefore he deals with us as he pleases.”  So what is man to do with himself? Milder argues,
The basis for egalitarian brotherhood in "Hawthorne and His Mosses" is not "humility before God," as F O. Matthiessen claimed of Melville…; it is vulnerability before apparent godlessness. Ontologically, democracy rests on what Melville called "the tragicalness of human thought in its own unbiassed, native and profounder workings"…From this it draws the ethical and political corollary that a shared victimhood communalizes us beyond differences of wealth, class, race, gender, education, and taste (Milder 66).
Hawthorne and Melville seemed to share a perception of the self-reliant individual as a potentially dangerous narcissist who could easily perceive a “dark necessity” behind their manipulative and self-centered actions.  Both writers seemed to find the cure to the malady of egotism in the same heart it consumes: the ideal individual is tempered by sympathy.  This can be seen most clearly in Hawthorne’s story The Minotaur. 
Hawthorne describes Theseus wandering through the labyrinth guided by Ariadne’s sympathy: “He would have left quite lost, and utterly hopeless of ever again walking in a straight path, if, every little while, he had not been conscious of a gentle twitch at the silken cord. Then he knew that the tender-hearted Ariadne was… giving him just as much of her sympathy as if she were close by his side. O, indeed, I can assure you, there was a vast deal of human sympathy running along that slender thread of silk.” The Scarlet Letter, shares Mapple’s preoccupation with truth and authenticity, as well as infidelity and egotism.  In both cases, we are admonished to be True and shown that there are consequences for naïve hubris.  Father Mapple proclaims:
Woe to that pilot of the living God who slights it. Woe to him whom this world charms from Gospel duty! Woe to him who seeks to pour oil upon the waters when God has brewed them into a gale! Woe to him who seeks to please rather than to appal! Woe to him whose good name is more to him than goodness! Woe to him who, in this world, courts not dishonor! Woe to him who would not be true, even though to be false were salvation! Yea, woe to him who, as the great Pilot Paul has it, while preaching to others is himself a castaway!’ (Melville 42-3).
Both Arthur and Jonah shrink from perceived moral necessity when it seems to compel them to face some primal terror, which in both cases, delivering “mortally intolerable truths” to an angry mob.  Although they are charged with the duty of proclaiming God’s truth, they shrink from their responsibility due to fear of their fellow man.  Whether through weakness or hubris, they slip into egocentrism and seek to flee instead.  “Bidden by the Lord to sound those unwelcome truths in the ears of a wicked Nineveh, Jonah, appalled at the hostility he should raise, fled from his mission, and sought to escape his duty and his God by taking ship at Joppa. But God is everywhere; Tarshish he never reached” (Melville 42). Similarly, Arthur is compelled to confront the sanctified with the unwelcome truth of his wickedness, yet he too is “appalled at the hostility it should raise” and “fled from his mission” to the forest, where he “sought to escape his duty” by fleeing via ship with Hester and Pearl. 
This emancipated individual would be a non-conformist and a free-thinker but their egotism would be checked by their commitment to truth and sympathy. As Father Mapple preached, “Delight is to him—a far, far upward, and inward delight—who against the proud gods and commodores of this earth, ever stands forth his own inexorable self.”  At the same time, Melville illustrates how Transcendental worship of the sun, only increases the gulf between the ideal and the actual.  The transcendental ideal fails its hypothetical test and Ishmael must “make a life-buoy of the coffin” and return to tell the tale (Melville 464). The “universal thump” is the cost of membership in society, as each man must wear a “monkey-rope,” but it is, at the same time, your only hope of getting your “shoulder-blades” rubbed.  The universal thump is the tragic aspect of man’s condition, but it also serves as a thread of sympathy which conjoins all individuals, whether they recognize it or not. 
The mingled, mingling threads of life are woven by warp and woof; calms crossed by storms, a storm for every calm. There is no steady unretracing progress in this life; we do not advance through fixed gradations, and at the last one pause:— through infancy’s unconscious spell, boyhood’s thoughtless faith, adolescence’ doubt (the common doom), then scepticism, then disbelief, resting at last in manhood’s pondering repose of If. But once gone through, we trace the round again; and are infants, boys, and men, and Ifs eternally (Melville 437).
It seems that the riddle of the Oedipal Sphynx, is man’s permanent condition (Milder 23). 
Ishmael returns to land with a “free and easy sort of genial, desperado philosophy” but, nevertheless, we find him still cycling between land and sea by at the mercy of his hypos like Bulkington, who had fallen from the prow to a watery death.  Ishmael invokes a Stoic resolve in the face of inevitable death, having already faced its direct prospect.  “Besides, all the days I should now live would be as good as the days that Lazarus lived after his resurrection; a supplementary clean gain of so many months or weeks as the case may be. I survived myself; my death and burial were locked up in my chest” (Melville 205).  Ishmael’s renaissance, however, merely prepares him for another “cool, collected dive at death and destruction” (Melville 205). The Pequod’s Promethean quest finds man orphaned but not without light. Ishmael points out that society is a joint stock venture. The example of Ishmael’s friendship with Queequeg shows him to be a man who can overcome prejudice through fellow feeling and an appreciation for subtle truths.  The personage of Queequeg shows that ‘moral refinement’ seems to have resulted in a loss of essential humanity. 
F.O. Matthiessen likens Ahab’s fatal pride to Lear’s and argues that Melville’s emphasis on Fate was partially attributable to the residue of Puritanism and partly driven by his skepticism regarding Emersonianism and points to Ahab’s tragedy is a “fearful symbol” of the tragic consequences of “self-enclosed individualism” or egotism (Matthiessen 455-9). Matthiessen wrote, “A concentrated view of Ahab will disclose that he was born from the matrix of Melville’s age. He is an embodiment of his author’s most profound response to the problem of the free individual will in extremis, Melville’s first detailed characterization of him stresses his apartness and his suffering, his ‘infinity of firmest fortitude,’ and yet the ‘crucifixion in his face.’ (Matthiessen 447-448). Mapple’s sermon, on the other hand, defines the pilot-prophet’s mission in terms of self-overcoming: “all the things that God would have us do are hard for us to do—remember that—and hence, he oftener commands us than endeavors to persuade. And if we obey God, we must disobey ourselves; and it is in this disobeying ourselves, wherein the hardness of obeying God consists.” (Melville 37).  Here, we might perceive the influence of Nathaniel Hawthorne, to whom Melville dedicated the book. 
Matthiessen may overstate the significance of Puritan’s influence on Melville but it seems to have been one of many factors that influenced his conception of evil (Milder 23).  Milder sees a pattern of discontent in Melville’s work and argues that
Whatever the literary mode and degree of authorial distance, the underlying attitudes were bitterness toward God for his detachment from history and a visceral indignation at the callousness of human beings. ‘We talk of the Turks, and abhor cannibals,’ Redburn says, but may not some of them, go to heaven, before some of us?  We may have civilized bodies and yet barbarous souls.  We are blind to the real sights of the world; deaf to its voice; and dead to its dead.  And not till we know, that one grief outweighs ten thousand joys, will we become what Christianity is striving to make us” (Milder 24-5). 
Melville elevates moral feeling over moral norms, fidelity over familiarity, and common humanity over civilization.  Above all else, however, Melville emphasizes the importance misericord.  In a letter to Hawthorne, Melville wrote “that mortal man who hath more of joy than sorrow in him, that mortal man cannot be true—not true, or undeveloped. With books the same. The truest of all men was the Man of Sorrows, and the truest of all books is Solomon’s, and Ecclesiastes is the fine hammered steel of woe. ‘All is vanity.’ ALL.” (Melville 380).  In this passage, Melville explicitly correlates fidelity and virtue with a sorrowful heart.  Conversely, he emphasizes that a joyful temperament is evidence of a mortification related to an excess of egocentrism.    In his essay Circles, Emerson wrote that “We all stand waiting, empty, — knowing, possibly, that we can be full…Then cometh the god, and converts the statues into fiery men, and by a flash of his eye burns up the veil which shrouded all things.”  Ahab believes that he may be that god.  He perceives that “all visible objects” are but as pasteboard masks” and he becomes unable to tolerate their inscrutability. In his defiant spirit, he is possessed by an unquenchable desire to, as Emerson wrote, “burn up the veil which shrouded all things.”  He devotes himself completely to his desire for vengeance believing that in
the living act, the undoubted deed—there, some unknown but still reasoning thing puts forth the mouldings of its features from behind the unreasoning mask. If man will strike, strike through the mask! How can the prisoner reach outside except by thrusting through the wall? To me, the white whale is that wall, shoved near to me. Sometimes I think there’s naught beyond. But ‘tis enough. He tasks me; he heaps me; I see in him outrageous strength, with an inscrutable malice sinewing it. That inscrutable thing is chiefly what I hate; and be the white whale agent, or be the white whale principal, I will wreak that hate upon him. Talk not to me of blasphemy, man; I’d strike the sun if it insulted me (Melville 145).
Hawthorne might as well have been describing Ahab, when he related that “there is a pleasure--perhaps the greatest of which the sufferer is susceptible--in displaying the wasted or ulcerated limb, or the cancer in the breast; and the fouler the crime, with so much the more difficulty does the perpetrator prevent it from thrusting up its snake-like head to frighten the world; for it is that cancer, or that crime, which constitutes their respective individuality.”  In a similar manner, Melville wrote:
Small reason was there to doubt…that ever since that almost fatal encounter, Ahab had cherished a wild vindictiveness against the whale, all the more fell for that in his frantic morbidness he at last came to identify with him, not only all his bodily woes, but all his intellectual and spiritual exasperations. The White Whale swam before him as the monomaniac incarnation of all those malicious agencies which some deep men feel eating in them, till they are left living on with half a heart and half a lung (Melville 164-165).
Ahab’s dying soliloquy is the antithesis to Dimmesdale’s, as Ahab dies vaingloriously, celebrating his Promethean transgression and reveling in his Titanic contempt and in misericord with Tashtego, who had fastened a bird to the mast with his hammer and thus, “like Satan, would not sink to hell till she had dragged a living part of heaven along with her, and helmeted herself with it” In a frenzied rage, Ahab thrust his spear into and “piled upon the whale’s white hump the sum of all the general rage and hate felt by his whole race from Adam down; and then, as if his chest had been a mortar, he burst his hot heart’s shell upon it.” (Melville 164-165):
‘I turn my body from the sun. What ho, Tashtego! let me hear thy hammer. Oh! ye three unsurrendered spires of mine; thou uncracked keel; and only god-bullied hull; thou firm deck, and haughty helm, and Pole-pointed prow,—death-glorious ship! must ye then perish, and without me? Am I cut off from the last fond pride of meanest shipwrecked captains? Oh, lonely death on lonely life! Oh, now I feel my topmost greatness lies in my topmost grief. Ho, ho! from all your furthest bounds, pour ye now in, ye bold billows of my whole foregone life, and top this one piled comber of my death! (Melville 507).
In his steadfast and defiant death, Ahab functions as a cathartic vehicle for both the writer and the sympathetic reader.  Tragically immersed in his fatal limitations, he now turns away from the sun and unrepentantly curses Moby-Dick and plummets to the depths, “fixed by infatuation, or fidelity, or fate” along with all but Ishmael (Melville 507). Towards thee I roll,” Ahab cries, “thou all-destroying but unconquering whale; to the last I grapple with thee; from hell’s heart I stab at thee; for hate’s sake I spit my last breath at thee. Sink all coffins and all hearses to one common pool! and since neither can be mine, let me then tow to pieces, while still chasing thee, though tied to thee, thou damned whale! Thus, I give up the spear!’ (Melville 507).  In spite, Ahab turns himself from the sun and acknowledges the overwhelming presence of evil in the world or, rather, its inhumanity and dies in violent defiance of it.
Earlier, however, Ahab asserted his brotherhood with an ancient Leviathan: ‘He turns and turns him to it,—how slowly, but how steadfastly, his homage-rendering and invoking brow, with his last dying motions. He too worships fire; most faithful, broad, baronial vassal of the sun!—Oh that these too-favoring eyes should see these too-favoring sights. (Melville 441).  In his search for possession of the divine fire of unmediated insight, however, he becomes imbalanced.  On the third day of the chase, Ahab reflects that, “thinking is, or ought to be, a coolness and a calmness; and our poor hearts throb, and our poor brains beat too much for that. And yet, I’ve sometimes thought my brain was very calm—frozen calm, this old skull cracks so, like a glass in which the contents turned to ice, and shiver it” (Melville 498).  Ahab’s singular preoccupation with his fiery hate has made him hard but frigid. In a moment of clarity, Ahab laments “What is it, what nameless, inscrutable, unearthly thing is it; what cozening, hidden lord and master, and cruel, remorseless emperor commands me; that against all natural lovings and longings, I so keep pushing, and crowding, and jamming myself on all the time; recklessly making me ready to do what in my own proper, natural heart, I durst not so much as dare? Is Ahab, Ahab? Is it I, God, or who, that lifts this arm?” (Melville 481). Ahab’s monomania has sundered his humanities yet, in his final confrontation with Moby-Dick, we sense in ourselves a common plight, a bond of misericord.  As Broadhead writes, Melville “shows us a world so fully inhuman that Ahab’s rite of cosmic defiance seems like a noble and necessary response; then he returns us to an everyday world in which canny skill and cheerful sociability seem like sufficient images of ultimate value” (Broadhead 151).  The novel does not seek to provide a transcendental solution to the human condition but, rather, sees synthesis in the conscious acceptance of discord.
In “The Try-Works” Ishmael seems to momentarily lose himself to the dark siren call of Ahab’s world.  He sees a world of darkness and flames spread out before him and realizes that he has lost sight of the ship’s compass.  Awakening from his dream, he realizes that he is facing the wrong way and turns the rudder in just enough time to avoid sinking the ship.  Ultimately, it seems, Ishmael is saved by his skepticism, whereas Ahab is doomed by the fixture of his purpose.  Accordingly, Ishmael issues a direct warning to the reader.
Give not thyself up, then, to fire, lest it invert thee, deaden thee; as for the time it did me. There is a wisdom that is woe; but there is a woe that is madness. And there is a Catskill eagle in some souls that can alike dive down into the blackest gorges, and soar out of them again and become invisible in the sunny spaces. And even if he for ever flies within the gorge, that gorge is in the mountains; so that even in his lowest swoop the mountain eagle is still higher than other birds upon the plain, even though they soar (Melville 380).
As Emerson wrote, “The secret of the illusoriness is in the necessity of a succession of moods or objects. Gladly we would anchor, but the anchorage is quicksand. This onward trick of nature is too strong for us: Pero si muove. When, at night, I look at the moon and stars, I seem stationary, and they to hurry. Our love of the real draws us to permanence, but health of body consists in circulation, and sanity of mind in variety or facility of association.”  Broadhead comes to a similar conclusion: “The Catskill eagle may dive or soar, may see grounds for disbelief, doubt, or faith, but it can never alight.  We will never achieve a fast repose of final knowledge either of ourselves or of our world: we can only have a self and a world in mutable motion, the experience, sometimes satisfying, sometimes desperately wearing, of the weaving of the warp and woof of existence” (Broadhead 150).  Herein lies man’s common bond, in his humanity, for all else is inhuman.  The realization that he is at odds with the world can only be justified by the realization that he is not without company.  He is conjoined to every other man in misericord, in the recognition of his insuperable longing and through the extension of mercy to himself and others.  As Ahab exclaimed “let me look into a human eye; it is better than to gaze into sea or sky; better than to gaze upon God” (Melville 480).



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